7 Days Before Surgery

March 12, 2010 I think....but I know it is Sunday.

Little one with fever, now Mom with sore throat.

Wake up and check on little one all night, keep fever down.

I'm so tired I can't type any longer, for fear that I will not make sense. Just need to catch up on sleep.

God is blessing this household with different 'Circles' that seem to be coming to a final close. It is conspicuous, as well as the following: every time we go somewhere, there is no line and we are the first to be served. Then WaLa! once our transaction is complete, we turn around. And stare at the ground. Because there are so many people waiting in line behind us, that we arrived at 'just the right time'. I don't know...

Did we arrive at the right time,

or

Was the time already laid out before us, with God knowing we would take this as a sign of great comfort...great comfort that we are a Team...and just like the Marines, just as we are sisters and brothers on this Earth (and in God's holy name)...one person can not be left alone. If one person on this Team has a problem, the rest of the people on this Team jump in. Just like when I was in medical school. No one is left behind.

I left Oral Robert's University School of Medicine abruptly, with only my 3-cyliner Chevy Sprint, an envelope with a Dean's Cover Letter of Reccomendation. And a gold seal, to ensure it was not opened. It was an ornate gold seal, astonishing in its presence. As if it was a letter from the Phantom of the Opera, or some General in the military. But I knew that God was behind it, as I first called UCLA and then USC to tell them what I just did: left my apartment full of furniture and drove back to Los Angeles so I could have family support. I left medical school with this piece of paper in my hand.....and was trusting that God would take care of me, no matter what the circumstances.

Living one day, one hour, one moment at a time.

Pure, unadulterated trust in God.

What would you do? How would you feel? Would you reach a place of peace, a place of blind trust, blind faith that stares you in the face? Decision time....this is a fork in the road, I know. What will I do with it?

I can tell you one thing ~ I know that I am not alone and that God will care for me.

This is the kind of confidence that I want you to have.